Another day come and gone. Surprised at how well this medication is working for me, next to no anxiety anymore. It's a shame tho even with them I still want my memory's to burn... I don't want them anymore.. why should I keep them.. they only made me so much of who I am.. But I don't know.. as much as it pain's me to consitantly think of where I went wrong.. and what I was put through because of other's fear..
meh.. I guess I'll live with them knowing I'm just second rate... One day someone will want me for me and not hold out like I have all these year's.. There is this one girl that has wrapped herself around my mind, only have met her once but she's smart, gorgeous, and has already accepted me at my worst. I just hope thing's work out for once in my favor on this. But we will see where it goes.
Until then I'm going to suffocate these memory's and lay them to rest.. thought's of you are more painful.. I gave unconditional love and I still wasn't good enough.. So much for "love"...
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